one step, yet?

The Christmas party was a hit last night. My first night out for three years. There were several people there, the night brought my nerves up to an all time high. The open bar fixed that for me. The crown royal was flowing through my veins. Needless to say, I had a hangover all day. 

I wasn't able to mingle and I found myself sitting alone at the table. I felt alone, I just sat there drinking my drink. 

The depression will mess with your emotions. I am depressed. I find myself yurning for freedom of my thoughts. I follow the darkness troubling my soul. I am truly heading nowhere. 

 "The road to nowhere leads to me"

Ozzy

I need help. 😫  will therapy help? I hope so. I am heading to a new chapter in my life. One I'm not ready for. My prosthetic will help me, tremendously.  Whether or not if I'm ready, it's coming. I will try hard to be ready, get set, go!